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Were just flipping through all the songs collected in my pc earlier.. Suddenly, I came to this song - Terlalu Istimewa by Adibah Noor. Remembering that it was my brother, David who introduced this song to me some times last year and I was and am truly in love with this song ever since then. Everytime I listen to this song, I will have one kind of feeling which drills in my heart and touches it.. I was once told by who-so-ever that there’s a story behind this song that this song was actually written for a young girl who had passed away 3 to 4 years ago. Here I am to share a lil’ bout the real story behind of the song:

There was a 10years old girl named Nurul Huda Abdul Ghani who was raped and killed years ago in JB, it was a shocking news that shook Malaysia sometimes ago. The singer Adibah Noor was too shocked by the hitting news that she expressed and shared her feeling to the composer, Azlan Abu Hasan, telling him that she wants to compose a song in rememberance to the poor and unlucky little girl. From there, here’s comes the song "Terlalu Istimewa" . The song’s lyric was written by the singer herself and was composed by Azlan Abu Hassan.

About the dedicated singer:

The singer, Adibah Noor herself spent out RM130,000 to produce her own album 3 years ago as NO ONE were willing to help in producing and releasing an album for her due to her big body size and she was asked to go on diet programme before they channel helps in bringing the album to a success. Finally, she decided that it’s better to do it herself than to keep on asking helps from the other music companies that emphasize on singer’s outlook. So, she took out RM130,000 on her own to accomplish this very warm-heart dream. And there comes the album and the songs that we’re currently listening to and having. However, all the tough experiences and hardworks by the Adibah Noor were well paid-off when she got the award of winning the best song and the best vocal of the year during the Anugerah Juara Lagu 2007. I believe her case proved to the community that it wasn’t the talents, outlook nor the nice music that has brought that very song to a success, but it was about the heart that’s willing to pour out love and symphaty that comes from the bottom of her heart. Of course that the brutality of the tragedy can never be erased but at least in that very one night, it makes Nurul Huda Abd Ghani, the deceased meant more than a forgotten tragedy. The song proves her existence and that alone should bring you a smile or even through the tears. It does kept me thinking for a moment. Hardworks did paid off isnt it??

I too, read from somebody else’s blog saying that the blogger was told by her friend that the brother of the victim became a lil’ mentally sick due to his resistance in accepting his sister’s tragedy death. He couldnt believed the fact that his sister was treated with sucha cruel and ugly deeds by the human being. I believe it was a difficult situation for the deceased’s family member. Let’s work hard together to fight against brutalities and crimes in this country~!!

Here’s the lyrics of the song.

A very beautiful song that I would highly recommend it to all of you. =)

Ku tatap gambar wajahmu

Sinar mata itu

Lirik senyumanmu

Pesona yang membelai

Wajahmu bercahaya

Memberi bahagia

Tiap yang memandang

Hati jadi salju

Kau terlalu istimewa

Kasih dan sayangmu terpancar

Seikhlas

Tiada batasan terus membara

Terkilan rasa jiwa

Inginku lihatmu dewasa

Apa daya Tuhan lebih menyayangimu

Ku pasti kau berbahagia

Duduk di sampingNya

Mendengar cerita

Segala rahsia

Tak tertanggung rindu

Mendengar suaramu

Tawa mengusik jiwa

I’ve updated my blog in my blogspot.. the reason I dont post it here again is because of the pictures… XD So, pardon me yah..~ If you wanna read more about the post, kindly open http://christinasan.blogspot.com/ thank you.. BuuBaa~ ^_^ XD

28th May, a rather cloudy day(again).. mood’s not real high nor down, normal, plus a lil’ bit of blurness.. -____- okay, that was craps.. lolz.. anyway, tonight will be going to Hillsong United Lives’ concert, am just waiting for time to pass now.. this morning while I was still pigging and lying around my bed with my big butt, suddenly handphone rangs… "GRRR… siapa yg mengacau nih?!?" (which means who is it that’s disturbing LOL. -.- XD) *totally pissed, pick up the phone..* "hello Chris, it’s Lisa here.." "uhh..?? Lisa?? oh ya, yesssss…??" "how come you’re not at work ahh??" "huh?? I thought today I annual leave..??" "tomorrow lah~!!" *zadou* "then how?" "never mind I settle for you.." "thanks ya Lisa~ Tah~" wow.. my team leader nice right =P after hang up the call then cannot sleep dy.. wake up and watch drama loh.. lolz.. Ehh.. dont stare at me like that, I’m like other young girl too, I love dramas, so what?!? Stop staring!! I scare you’ll fall in love with me.. STOP!! XD lolz.. wonder why how come today will come out with sucha lame and cold joke.. lolz.. maybe my mind’s really not functioning well -_-" Help anyone..?? -_-" anyway, talked about drama, I finished the whole series of "It started with a kiss 2 [恶作剧2吻]" I really liked it much, although I still do think the first series’ better, but no care laa.. I’m loving it~ (pa.la.pa.pa.paa.. I’m loving it~ - McD’s lolz.. -.-) guess there’ll be the 3rd series cause the ending has a lil’ suspense.. made me "sam si si" only cheh cheh.. But when I watched the series, somehow I’ll be thinking that, how come always in the dramas that the guy will definitely be so perfect and loving while surrounding me, I can hardly see guys like that?? -_-" WAA!! no offence laa guys.. heart speak of mine.. =D Actually I dont know since when that I dreamt of wanna get married in the future, I always ask myself that will I get married in the future..?? If I got married, will I be able to give birth and sucha stuff..?? Yaya.. I know I shouldnt be thinking and worrying about these stuffs, just that it just pops up to my mind from time to time.. maybe I’m just thinking too much..?? Yea, I think so too.. We’ll see laa.. haha.. who knows in the future I’ll be "lou gu po" also.. XD cant see nor predict the future though.. just wait and see.. XD Anyway, anyone going to the Hillsong United Lives’ concert later..?? It’s my second time attending their concert here in Malaysia.. I’m not a fans of them.. Just that I wanna catch some fire and be a part in the worship and also to hang out and meet up with everyone.. from kt and long lost contact friends.. XD Sometime I really do wonder how the worship leader and band members hold and focus their heart.. I mean while they’re worship leading on the stage, how are they gonna focus on God and not the crowds..?? (just my opinion laa >>) the band and the worship leader has responsiblity in leading the crowds, but how do they make sure that the crowds’ focusing on God and not their skill on stage..?? Or in other words, how to make sure that the people are worshipping God and not the band members itself..?? Sometimes I’m really blur.. Cause I myself faces problems like this, thats why I’ve withdrawn from the team for a while.. Until I get right with God, I wont join the team, cause I believe once part of the worship team is not right with God, it will how some in some way ruin something.. Anyway, Dont get me wrong.. I’m not saying that United lives’ band or planetshakers or any other bands are getting glory for themselves… -_-" What I am saying is that, how are we going to set our heart on God and focus on Him alone.. Pardon me ya, Suddenly came up with this.. cause I once too "worship and adore" the band rather than focusing on God.. The funny thing about it is that, I thought I am worshipping God.. Haha.. Think about it now, it’s pretty a joke for me.. Still learning and getting right about myself before Him.. no wonder people would always say that life’s a learning journey.. Now, I acknowledged.. ^_^

haha.. it seems to be that I’ve lost contact with my friendster blog.. -.-

so sorry that I couldnt update here in my friendster blog due to the limited internet supply that I have.. lolz!! so sorry ya.. ^_^

anyway, my updates’ back up in my blogger. not that I dont want to post it here.. just that it’s pretty hard to upload pics here, so, pardon me ya.. ^^ http://christinasan.blogspot.com/

thank you~ BuuBaa~ ^_^

Hello people~ YES YES!! I’m back on blogging again~ Muahaha.. Its already 11.09 pm now.. thought I’m really tired, still I’ve chose to blog.. now you know how much I miss blogging XD.. anyway, today is my second day of work in Symphony.. where I just finished the orientation and started the training today which will end in 2 days time.. Seriously, working’s not that fun but it’s kinda interesting.. haha.. anyway, you must be wonder what my company’s doing.. XD my company actualy provides the service of outsourcing which actually means, people pay our company to do jobs that they dont wanna do so that they can focus more on their main goals.. and US, will have to complete the task for them.. as for my department, we’re doing some outbound job.. where we call customers to remind them of their unpaid bills and stuff like that.. haha.. in other words, we’re the LEGAL "dai yee long". If you’re wondering whats "dai yee long" means, it’s like loan shark laa.. haha XD anyway, guess what’s my position’s title is..?? =D c’mon.. make a guess.. dont give in.. just guess.. XD okay laa.. i know you’ll never get it.. =P its called CREDIT CONTROL PROFESSIONAL(CCP).. Woah!! the title of my position sounds so professional right.. lolz!! I know it’s cool.. haha.. got the "professional" at behind of it some more.. woah~ XD super cool man =P Anyway, I really miss KT a lot.. haha.. life in KT really different in KL, where KT is more to a peaceful town and KL is really a city lifestyle.. people comes people goes.. dont really bothered about others.. then have to wait and pack like sardine in the LRT somre more -.- still KT’s better.. haha.. for those who’re in peaceful towns, you better enjoy of course unless you really love city’s life style.. haha..kay laa.. that’s all for now I guess.. gotta wake up at 8 tomorrow, cause have to take LRT at 9 to my company where my work starts at 10.. so, take care ya everyone!! I miss you guys and girls, especially HGites~ all the best for the upcoming drama competition!! GOGO ANONYMOUS~ XD

Anyway, this was posted in my blogspot earlier.. and again, stm.. -.- i forgotten to post it up here.. haha.. paiseh ya.. so.. haha.. congrates to everyone in the drama thingy!! especially to my group members.. haha.. i believe you guys did well ^^ BuuBaa~

***This was posted in my blogspot on 1st April***

~Sry for the late update, I’ve forgotten -.-~

Was watching CJ7 with mummie yesterday night and the movie was not so bad.. kinda watched it through and there’s few parts kinda funny and touching.. where I actually wet my eyes with tears.. lolz.. (cant help laa!! I’m always like that wutt >.< -.-) seriously, I hate watching movies/show that will got me crying.. =.= they always torture me with swollen eye T_T O_O anyway, that’s not what I’m gonna talk about ^^ was having some talk with mummie yesterday night and just now.. maybe I should start with the one yesterday.

yesterday night when I was doing something in my room, suddenly, my mum came in and asked me "eh San ah.. did you heard about XXX had sex with her bf and got taped and sent all around or even posted up to the net..??" I turned to her and said, "huh…?? no ahh.." for your information, XXX was my schoolmates or maybe I should say we were in the same basketball team playing for our school last time.. not to say very close, but atleast we knew each other.. I mean, I dont know should say she’s stupid or pity her for being taped =.= stupid in the sense of primarital sex.. YES!! for you to know, I never support premarital sex.. why..?? haha.. cause I believe virginity is one of the most precious thing in everyone that money cant buy neither can be exchanged with things.. Do you wish your husband/wife to be someone who had be "used" by others?? in other words, second hand laa.. Do you wish to hear from your wife/husband on your wedding night saying "Darling, actually I had sex with XYZ before.. but that was past.. now I’m all yours" You want that?? If yes, I’m speechless and you can just click alt+f4 now to close this page.. -_-" I personally dont like second hand things.. I dont like things that others used before or even dont like it when people use the same thing as I am =.= (I wonder is it good or bad =.= but anyway, that’s not important) what I’m saying is that, us, especially girls should watch over ourselves.. take something most precious to exchange with something worthless is never worth it.. think about it yourself.. smart people do smart things and make smart choices.. I hope you who’s reading this now is/will be a smart people instead of being a bimbo.. ^^ talked about pity.. =.= seriously, I only symphatise her cause she’s my friend.. I know I sound a lil’ bad here.. but for me, in all that you do, you have to know the consequences and pay the price of that very thing.. dare to do then dare to face it.. the things had been spread around.. what else can she do anyway?? -____- just with her all the best laa ^^

then about the conversation just now, suddenly again my mum asked me -_-" eh… how’s you and "that fella" ahh?? lolz.. my mum seems to like "that fella" -_-" yes.. he’s a smart kid + guai chai look and all the things of a guai guai zai except a lil’ of his personality and character.. haha.. actually my mum always thought that we both are in a relationship, but then actually we’re not.. hmm.. complicated one.. but then somewhat, suddenly I felt like.. oh my gosh.. how do I feel like my mum’s so open-minded suddenly =.= but something great about my mum is.. she’s always being supportive.. not all the times -_-" but most of the times ^^ maybe its time for me to grow.. and know what’s more important in life rather than longing for a bf like what’s in the world.. if he’s the one for me, it’ll somehow never gonna run away.. if not, why wanna ruin the friendship.. enjoy life especially youth life would be better.. for those who had passed teen-life and went ino ty-life.. are you guys envy of us who’re still young, naive and INNOCENT?!? *act innocent* XD

***This was posted in my blogspot on 1st April***

~Sry for the late update, I’ve forgotten -.-~

Actually I wanted to post about this yesterday night.. but then, sorta got scared, therefore went to sleep -.- Anyway, I’m here to share about songs that contain other meaning other than the lyrics that shown in the song itself.. So often that we listen to songs but never really get to know the true meaning in the song itself.. Maybe it had some hidden message in it..?? Or even maybe it contains satanic message in it?? who knows?? you?? me??

Yesterday night, I was chatting with my brother Dickson, he sent me a few links from youtube, asking me to check them out.. So I believe my brother wouldnt play prank on me, so I just click loh.. It’s about songs like Pokemon’s theme song, Hotel California and etc.. When I was young I sorta in love of pokemon’s songs =.= but now sorta.. =X I even deleted the pokemon movies that I’ve just downloaded.. LOLZ!! I know you must be thinking that I’m so childish.. lolz.. But I’m too bored at home wutt.. sort of rotting of my live body.. lolz!! and yes.. the song "hotel california" was once hitz in the past.. who would know that ACTUALLY in those songs itself contains satanic message?? =.= when people reversely play the songs(as in I LOVE YOU BABY = BABY YOU LOVE I), only then people found out that actually brings out another message other than the lyrics sang by people itself.. -.- It’s kinda scary and freaky.. got me a little confused and surprised.. and starting to wonder if some of the songs I’m listening to contains sucha message too?? where I didnt even noticed it?? There’s possiblity of that you know.. we wouldnt know.. better pray hard.. XD

Besides those hidden satanic songs in songs, my bro also mentioned bout the song "Gloomy Sunday". I wonder if you guys ever heard of it.. It was once quite popular in my form when i was in form 2(14 years old).. there’s story behind that song.. to know more about it, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gloomy_Sunday . If you read through the page in wikipedia about it, surely you’ll read about the attemping to get suicide too. Remember those time when I was still in form 2, my friends told me that whoever listen to the songs will commit suicide and die.. but I sorta dont believe that, and if i’m not mistaken, I did listen to it once.. due to the classical-ness of it, I sorta feel bored and closed when the song went half way.. I always wonder is it true about the song.. from what I know, its a song of curse cause the song writer felt so sad and hurt after got dumped by the girlfriend.. poor thing.. love turns into hatres.. wonder whats the world ike =.=

anyway, I’m NOT recommending you to listen to the songs -_-" but I’m here to ask you to be careful of what you’re listening.. sometimes we take things for granted or even thought that "where got so serious laa.." but somehow in some ways, it might affect us.. as I said earlier, who knows?? neither you and I.. pray that God will open up our eyes and ears to the things unseen and unheard, pray too that he’ll take control of things and guide our heart and mind, as well as guide us in our doings in daily life ^^